I'm In A Shuraba Every Time I Open My Eyes: Chapter 19

ARC 1: FIRST BATTLEFIELD (19)

Bai Xiyue thought Yan Yushan would be the one calling, but it turned out to be Shang Junzhuo.

After closing the door, she turned on the speakerphone. She plopped herself on the couch and rubbed her eyebrows.

"Yueyue, are you at home?"

"No, I'm at a friend's house."

"Is your stomach feeling better?"

"Mhm, it's better."

Bai Xiyue responded faintly to Shang Junzhuo's gentle voice as she untied her hair.

"Then remember to go to bed early. Don't play too late."

"Okay."

Bai Xiyue stared phone before clearing the call log. She labeled her boyfriends as sales promotions then put them on the blacklist.

She didn't want to have any phone call accidents tonight.

Bai Xiyue picked up the clothes on the ground, threw them into the clothes basket, then put on a bathrobe in preparation for a bath.

At this time, the doorbell rang.

Bai Xiyue knew who it was without even thinking about it, but she still had to play the part.

She tucked her hair back and quickly entered her role.

"Huh? Yushan? Why are you here?"

Yan Yushan saw her astonishment the moment she opened the door, but she was quick to cover up with a smile.

This was the smile she normally had in front of him.Please read this at onemachineshow.blogspot.com

It was different from the one he saw at the bar.

Only now did he come to understand that she concealed herself out of habit.

"I came over to see you. "

Bai Xiyue brought Yan Yushan a pair of slippers and closed the door once he stepped inside.

"I'm going to take a shower. Please have a seat."

Bai Xiyue's polite words were not like she was talking to her boyfriend.

On her way to the bathroom, she thought about the kitchen. Since the original owner couldn't cook, it was only there for show. It was devoid of all kitchenware, meaning there were no available knives to murder her death with.

The house didn't have any sticks or rods, and the ashtrays were all made of plastic, so they shouldn't be able to knock her out.

Bai Xiyue looked at her thin arms and legs and thought about Yan Yushan's figure and strength. She felt it was better to play it smart.

As Yan Yushan sat in the living, he didn't feel angry at all.

He was simply surprised.

It was the kind of surprise that stemmed from being caught off guard.

In addition to those emotions, there were many things to think about.

He suddenly wanted to see how she would react when she finds out that he knows about her disguise.

It was this urge that brought him here.

After Bai Xiyue came out of the bathroom, she sat on a nearby sofa.

She was in her pajamas, and everything that should be covered was covered up.

"What would you like to say to me?"

Bai Xiyue looked at Yan Yushan and decided to initiate the conversation.

She was afraid that he might have the idea of playing the 'wait and see' game. Her low energy was already making it difficult to carry out her double performance.

Seeing Bai Xiyue's somewhat puzzled expression, Yan Yushan's evil trait magnified.

"I went to a bar today, and I think I saw you there."

His tone was very even, but his eyes were fixed on her. He wasn't going to miss any of her reactions.

It was precisely because of this that Bai Xiyue's reaction was well received.

He saw a strange reaction mixed with panic, followed by a slight shiver of disgust.

Bai Xiyue was trembling silently as she brewed in her heart.

She was planning a good show. There was a point when she played a character with a dissociative disorder. She spent quite some time inhabiting that role and was later able to perform well. It didn't require much effort on her part to make the switch.

"Maybe you saw it wrong."

Bai Xiyue lowered her eyes as if she was evading.

"You know, I don't appreciate being lied to."

Yan Yushan forcibly raised her chin and stared at her delicate face.

This deception didn't actually feel that bad.

"I didn't lie to you."

Bai Xiyue kept her eyes down and refused to look at him. She was still trembling in her role of a weak little woman.

But then, the air around her suddenly changed.

"Of course she didn't lie to you."

Raising her head, she swatted his hand away with some impatience.

From the moment she said those words, her whole person transformed from her eyes down to her body movements. Yan Yushan was stunned.

"This night originally belonged to me. Your appearance made her come up, but it's fine now. Since there's no more concealment, we can all be happy."

Bai Xiyue sat on the sofa and crossed her legs as she delivered those words with a cold voice.

Her gloomy eyes tinged with gloating made her seem like a complete stranger to him.

Bai Xiyue was actually making a dangerous move, and her heart couldn't help but tremble.

These targets were not easy to deal with. If this doesn't work out, she can just go back and try something else, but what if it succeeds?

Yan Yushan frowned as he looked at the woman in front of him.

"Take your time. I know you're shocked right now."

Bai Xiyue took out a box of unpacked ladies' cigarettes from the drawer. It belonged to one of the original owner's friends, but it was coming in handy.

Yan Yushan didn't like other people smoking in front of him, so Bai Xiyue is going to smoke in front of him.

She bit the cigarette filter and exhaled a light puff of smoke from her nose with practiced ease.

The wrinkles between Yan Yushan's eyebrows deepened. He remembers a time he went out with Bai Xiyue. The people next to them were smoking, and she frowned reflexively. The smell of smoke back then was very heavy. How can she now...

"Dissociative disorder?"

Bai Xiyue couldn't deny it, so she nodded.

"Tsk, what a pain."

Bai Xiyue cursed in a low voice. Her expression distorted malevolently.

She was looking at him with a face that was both familiar and foreign to him.

"Okay, so you know our secret. Is there anything else you want to say?"

Bai Xiyue bit her cigarette holder and flicked the ashes.

Her apathetic eyes looked at Yan Yushan with undeniable impatience.

There was a sharp quality to her. Even if Yan Yushan sat there with a dark expression on his face, her aura was not inferior.

"Come on, don't look so unsightly. You must have already processed the fact. Let me guess, you're disappointed?"

Bai Xiyue chuckled lightly and described their love from the perspective of a bystander.

"In fact, you don’t like her all that much. Everyone's an adult here, so talking about love would be a bit childish. You needed a home, and she gave you a sense of home. She must have been the perfect wife candidate in your heart.

"You're a control freak who doesn't like things veering off track. So sorry we let you down."

Bai Xiyue crushed the cigarette in her hand.

Her sudden explosion of acting skills seems to have convinced Yan Yushan of her dual personality.

"You are a hindrance to her," he said.

Bai Xiyue understood what he meant. She scoffed at him, but her face revealed an uncomfortable expression.

Yan Yushan was basically saying that he could bring the 'main personality' happiness, but she as the 'sub-personality' was destroying it.

"She wouldn't be alive right now if I hadn't been protecting her."

Bai Xiyue was incorporating some of her own emotions. If it wasn't for her conscientious work, this body would have died countless more times.

"You don't know her at all. How could you give her happiness? Were you going to rely on your self-righteous liking and possessiveness?"

Bai Xiyue's middle name was 'yandere hater'. She still gets angry whenever she thinks of her ex-boyfriend who led her to this mess.

If Yan Yushan had discovered that she wasn't the original owner, then Bai Xiyue wouldn't have said anything even if this was the extent of his affection.

But what kind of bullshit affection is this? Not only did he not discover it, he goes psycho over the slightest disagreement.

Being rightly paranoid about someone is a fortunate thing, but being wrongly paranoid about someone is a tragic one.

Black room plays are terrifying to think about, okay? You're not treated like a human being with rights and get flung into a dark world without justice until you're forced to surrender. Is that what they wanted in the first place?

If someone was treated like that, they would never be the same again.

Even an optimistic and cheerful person will likely develop a sense of self-loathing.

Not everyone will suffer from Stockholm Syndrome and fall in love with their abuser.

The dull expression in Yan Yushan's eyes looked frightening, but Bai Xiyue was not afraid. She simply watched him.

"I want to talk to her."

Yan Yushan was slightly irritable. He didn't like his authority being challenged like this. There was even a feeling of revulsion.

"Fine. She's the one who's going to owe me anyway."

Bai Xiyue shrugged indifferently.

In the next moment, her aura transformed into a gentle appearance. There were even balancing tears in her eyes.

"Yushan... I didn't want you to find out."

Her tears didn't fall. She simply pinched her fingers together and watched him with a nervous expression.

Yan Yushan looked at her with complicated eyes. He still couldn't quite accept this situation.

"Can't you let her disappear?"

Yan Yushan gently tapped the tabletop of the coffee table.

"She is getting in the way of your life. I know a good psychologist who can examine you."

"She's not!"

Bai Xiyue stood up. She looked very excitable on the surface, but her heart was going mtf.

She just knew he would try to get rid of the sub-personality.

"She and I are one and the same, Yushan. Don't you like me? Won't you accept everything about me?"

Bai Xiyue grabbed his hand. Her eyes brimming with expectations looked somewhat abnormal as she tightened her grip.

Aren't yanderes supposed to be like this? Once they like someone, they like every aspect of the person.

What's the point if they're only crazy about their good side?

"We can still be together... I can let her come out when you're gone, that way we can stay together just fine."

Bai Xiyue's voice grew louder and there was a trace of despair on her face. It was bordering on hysteria.

Yan Yushan's squeezed hand was a bit sore, and the lack of control he had over the situation nearly made him violent.

"Yueyue, first calm down."

Yan Yushan pulled out his hand and stood up.

"Let's both calm down for a while, then meet up some other time."

Bai Xiyue still carried on her performance after he said this. She even tried to grab onto his clothes and begged him to stay.

Yan Yushan still left, and the moment the door closed, she immediately stood up from the ground.

"Tch, try fighting this old lady." Her acting skills are not a joke.

Just now, she felt that they were in peak condition. What they say about adversity making people stronger is true. Her desire to survive really empowered her.

Bai Xiyue stretched her long legs on the sofa with a beautiful expression on her face.

She has come to grasp his nature.

Yan Yushan likes to weigh the pros and cons. He is goal-oriented and knows exactly what he does and does not want.

It's okay to be sick in the head, but only for people he was fond of. He couldn't care less about everyone else.

When she shows the other side of herself, he might have thought, "Ha, woman, you have caught my attention", but once he learns that she wasn't someone he could control, he would give up on his affection.

When her personality changed just now, her aura was almost two meters tall!

Right? Bai Xiyue secretly poked the system.

[System]: Yes, your performance was outstanding. You are simply the best host I have ever seen.

The system was not stingy about issuing rainbow fart and praised her sincerely.

[Bai Xiyue]: You've brought over other hosts?

[System]: Yes.Please read this at onemachineshow.blogspot.com

[Bai Xiyue]: Did they succeed?

[System]: Unfortunately, I have never had one that succeeded, but other systems do.

[Bai Xiyue]: Was failure not an option? Didn't they just go back?

[System]: There were some who kept repeating the first world. Since their mental states prohibited them from carrying out the mission, their souls were repaired and returned to be replaced with new hosts.

[Bai Xiyue]: Returned?

Hope rose in her heart.

[System]: The people who returned met certain ends with yanderes. The best ones remained in captivity while the worst ones died.

Bai Xiyue's hope disappeared in an instant.

[Bai Xiyue]: You systems pit your hosts?

[System]: How can be that be the case? After all the tasks are completed, the host can request to have their mission memories erased to live without pressure. We will in turn rescue the hosts from their respective yanderes. The hosts will live without worries, and their bodies will become optimal. Physical proportions will be adjusted to perfection, no fat will be gained no matter how much they eat, nor will there be any cause for sunburn or darkening with their constitution...

The front was quite serious, but the rear sounded more like advertising.

The details were simply irresistible!

Bai Xiyue was getting psyched.

She carefully formulated her next plan. Yan Yushan's side was somewhat under control, but she shouldn't get ahead of herself. It would be bad if she overdid things. She had to wait.

Chen Qingzhu's side was almost done. That jab at his inferiority would have fermented his emotions.

Jian Ning and Shang Junzhuo need further consideration.

Seeing as how this was only her fourth day in this world, her progress was pretty good.

Although she died twice in the interim, the situation had been out of her control.

In any case, she was gradually inching towards her goal.

One must be patient. Haste will ruin everything. If she isn't careful, she will get a quick GG.

But acting required an entire set. After Yan Yushan left, she began to bombard his phone.

Bai Xiyue was crying the moment their call connected.

Of course, she only sounded like she was crying. Her expression was very relaxed while she called out his name.

"Yushan, what you said at the beginning..."

She prattled on like a shopkeeper, and when coupled with her cries, it was an irritating combination.

"Xiyue, calm down." Yan Yushan turned the steering wheel. He was getting vexed.

This went beyond his expectations. Bai Xiyue 's image collapsed completely. She now felt like a crybaby making nothing but trouble.

The average person is likely to point fingers at the person with dissociate disorder. It would certainly put stress on a couple's relationship.

Accepting everything would be best, but if that wasn't possible, their relationship will probably explode.

Bai Xiyue kept at it until Yan Yushan couldn't stand it and hung up on her. Only when she couldn't get through his phone did she collapse on the sofa with a smile.

Sorry brother, but for our sakes, I must torment you.

Bai Xiyue acted to her heart's content and slept comfortably that night. When she woke up, she was full of energy.

She whipped out her phone and continued to call him.

Aiyah, she can't get through.

This is no good. Aren't I your sweetie? Weren't you going to kill me if I asked to break up?!

Sure enough, men are big pig trotters¹.

Bai Xiyue didn't go out the whole day. She stayed at home, watched tear-jerking movies, and listened to heart-wrenching songs until her eyes were red and swollen.

After that, she went to Yan Yushan's front door and waited for him.

As she waited, she played games on her phone until the system alerted her to his arrival.

Yan Yushan was lost in thought all day. He couldn't focus at work.

The house-attending Bai Xiyue opened the door for him.

"I've made an appointment with a doctor. You will go see them tomorrow."

The smile on Bai Xiyue's face stiffened. Her gaze was one of resistance.

"She's the one who protects me. Killing her means killing me. I won't allow it."

"Yushan," she looked at Yan Yushan with a pleading look in her eyes. "We can just go back to the way we were before. There won't be any mistakes."

In order to capture, one must loosen the reins. Although Bai Xiyue was doing it the other way around, the logic was similar.

People become restless when they fail to obtain what they want.

Without certainties, they will begin to doubt the other person's intentions, doubt the person's affection, and ultimately pester them until the other person gets fed up and kicks them aside.

Of course, this method depended on the individual.

"You're really not going to see a doctor?"

Bai Xiyue firmly shook her head.

Yan Yushan put down his briefcase and looked at her quietly.

He thought about her second personality from yesterday, but no matter how much he thought about the situation, he didn't like her.

But if Bai Xiyue doesn't cooperate with the treatment, it was impossible to make her disappear.

Uncontrollable, delinquent, and disorderly. Whenever Yan Yushan thought about these words, it spelled endless trouble.

And he hated trouble.

Her endless crying was also testing his good patience as a hunter. It felt as if his love for her was gradually being worn down.

Bai Xiyue was laughing madly in her heart, but she was sniveling on the surface.

Come on, let's ugly cry.

Sniveling women annoyed him the most. Her blubbering words were also hard to follow.

This appearance won't stir his pity. It will only serve to disgust him.

"Since you don't want to see a doctor, let's have some time apart."

Yan Yushan didn't straightforwardly ask to separate. He still cared about her emotional state.

Bai Xiyue suddenly smiled, but it was uglier than crying.

"I thought you were a man I could entrust my life with, but I didn't expect..."

She was now laughing and crying at the same time. Her chest felt like it would explode.

As a result, it took some time for the actress to calm herself down.

"In fact, I thought about this possibility last night. I knew you wouldn't be able to accept it, but I still had to try. But now that it turned out this way..."

Bai Xiyue took a deep breath and covered her face.

She had to, otherwise, she was going to burst out laughing.

"I'll fulfill your wish. Let's break up. I hope you can find someone you love in the future and live happily together for the rest of your lives."

Adieu.

Bye-bye~

After Bai Xiyue finished speaking, she wiped her tears and walked out as if she couldn't stand it anymore.

Hahahahahahahaha!

She was laughing with her head held up high!

Yan Yushan stood up and wanted to give chase, but sat back down.

He untied his tie with some irritation and stared at the empty tabletop.

Break up. He had never considered it.

He wasn't young anymore. When he first met Bai Xiyue, wasn't overcome with so-called love. There were some feelings, and she suited his tastes. She was a woman who belonged to him. It couldn't be more perfect than that.

But this perfect veil was torn off, making him feel powerless.

Yan Yushan wanted to pack up her things in his home but was surprised to see that she left nothing behind.

Even the clothes she came with last time were taken away.

Suddenly, everything seemed to have changed, but at the same time, it felt like nothing had changed at all.

[System]: Congratulations, Host. There are three left.

Bai Xiyue sat in the taxi and logged out of the WeChat account.

She made sure to delete his number and made plans to change her sim card.

Her eyes were still red and swollen, but the smile on her face was radiant.

I'm so damn happy hahahaha!

Dissociate disorder made her so happy!

Thank you for your acting skills, dear self. You made great contributions towards extending your life.

Bai Xiyue was elated the entire way home. After having lunch outside, she started looking for an agency online.

She wanted to sell this residence in order to completely cut off her relationship with Yan Yushan.

She was playing a game when she suddenly received a call from Jian Ning.

Looking at the page where she had just failed her shot and got defeated by the other side, Bai Xiyue was going to break into foul language when she heard a depressed voice say, "Yueyue, my mum got into a car accident."

???

"Okay, I'll be there soon. What hospital is it? I'll look for you."

"The Diyi hospital."Please read this at onemachineshow.blogspot.com

Bai Xiyue's heart dropped, but it wasn't possible not to go. She could only change her shoes and rush out.

Jian Ning was a rebellious child. Because of his fondness for women's clothing, he nearly angered his mother to death. But the child couldn't help himself, and so she gradually came to accept this fact. Although their relationship was quite rigid, their feelings ran deep.

After his father passed away a few years ago, she became his only relative.

As Bai Xiyue sat in the taxi, silently prayed that his mother would be fine.

On the one hand, she wanted her to be safe, but on the other hand, she knew that if Jian Ning lost his only family, he was going to regard her as his pillar of support and sustenance. The firm grip he already has on her will be more difficult to release.

Bai Xiyue ran to the hospital until she arrived outside the operating room.

She found Jian Ning pacing back and forth. He seemed to be saying something and looked very upset.

"Jian Ning, how's Auntie?"

"I don't know the situation. She's still being rescued. Yueyue, what do I do? I'm scared."

Jian Ning held her hand. His palm was covered in cold sweat, and the look her gave her was one of utter helplessness.

"What happened?"

"I was at the studio when I got a call from someone saying she was in an accident. I rushed over and beat that driver into the police station. Nothing can happen to her."

Jane Ning's voice was trembling. Bai Xiyue comforted him and waited with him by the operating room.

The light in the emergency room changed from red to green. Soon, a doctor wearing a mask pushed the doors open.

"Doctor, how's my mum?"

"The patient is out of danger. You no longer need to worry."

"Oh great, that's great. Yueyue, my mum's okay. She's okay."

Jian Ning hugged Bai Xiyue and planted an excitable kiss on her face.

"When she wakes up, I'll introduce her to her daughter-in-law."

Bai Xiyue's body stiffened. She couldn't bear to make eye contact with the doctor.

Ahhhhh! Save me!

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You got a super long update today. Hurry up and praise me!

Dr. Shang’s death stare.... mwahahaha

Some people say that Sister Yue is taking too long to break up. Um, she's only transmigrated for four days and broke up on the fifth day. If this is too long then, I'm confused. Wouldn't it be faster to off myself?

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1. Big pig trotters (大猪蹄子 — dàzhūtízi)a derogatory term used to describe men. It's a way of saying 'men aren't a good thing'↩︎

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Out of all the 4 boyfriends, I dreaded Dr. Shang's yandere mode the most. It's scary when sweet people go psycho. GG girl, GG.