I'm In A Shuraba Every Time I Open My Eyes: Chapter 22

ARC 1: FIRST BATTLEFIELD (22)

In fact, when Bai Xiyue first came to this world, she had looked up the definition of a 'yandere'¹.

During these few days that she's been in contact with them, she discovered that they were not yet far gone. They could still be saved.

They certainly had a strong obsession and possessiveness for the person named 'Bai Xiyue' and would at times behave dangerously, but was this love? Bai Xiyue felt that they definitely liked her, but genuine love was not yet up for consideration.

To be honest, the activity of recognizing the soul was somewhat dubious.

Before, Bai Xiyue felt that these people could not differentiate her from the original owner meant that she was not loved. But in reality, this determination was subjective.

On the one hand, Bai Xiyue was acting, and on the other hand, this matter of her soul being switched was sensational in its own right. Furthermore, while she may have been very busy every day, the actual amount of time she spent alone with a target was limited. It was normal for them not to have noticed anything.

There was also the most important reason, and that was the vague statement issued by the system before.

Also, if a boyfriend Bai Xiyue got along with a was possessed by a man with superb acting skills, she could not say with 100% certainty that she would notice the difference.

She felt that this kind of thing was too abstract.

These targets' degree of 'affection' happens to be in the range of ordinary people's 'affection'.

This was fortunate, otherwise, a breakup wouldn't even be an option.

Now that she thinks about it, if Yan Yushan had said 'I love you no matter what' on that day she acted like a schizophrenic, it would have really been impossible to carry on with this mission.

There is bound to be a reason for a thing's existence. Since the system was telling her to complete this mission, then it shows that it can in fact be successful.

Bai Xiyue didn't panic at all. Before dinnertime, she changed her clothes then went to see Shang Junzhuo.

"Come in. You're just in time. Go wash your hands then come eat."

Shang Junzhuo brought out the dishes, and the soft yellow light that landed on his body gave off a sense of warmth.

Seeing him this way, it was really hard to connect him with the version that had a moral meltdown.

Bai Xiyue would have never imagined it had she not reloaded.Please read this at onemachineshow.blogspot.com

It was nothing more than a black room play, a captivity play. When thought of in conjunction with what Doctor Shang said, 'then she must be cleaned thoroughly, from the inside out', then it's very clear that it meant something that did not conform with the core values of socialism.

In short, the hardcore details of what happened could only be found on an R18 website and hidden in the 'H' dark fiction section.

Bai Xiyue dispelled the terrible thoughts from her mind. She was feeling very grateful for the reload mechanism.

Because Bai Xiyue said she was on her period before, the flavors resembled light Hong Kong and Cantonese dishes that paired well with the blood and qi nourishing mutton soup.

Shang Junzhuo took care of her very meticulously. When Bai Xiyue went to wash her hands at some point, a bowl filled with rice had already been arranged at her spot when she returned.

"I also made a soup with white fungus, wolfberry, and lotus seeds. It's still hot right now, but it'll be warm after the meal."

The original owner didn't like to eat red dates, so Shang Junzhuo didn't put any inside.

"Okay."

Bai Xiyue looked at Shang Junzhuo. She picked up the tableware and proceeded to enjoy the delicious food.

She hasn't yet figured out how to break up with this person.

Doctor Shang has always been a relatively gentle person. He did not expressively show his likes or dislikes. Bai Xiyue has scoured through her memories but still couldn't figure out what kind of woman he hated.

He couldn't be smacked with money. Doctor Shang did not lack money. He had a house, a car, and savings.

There were parents to create pressure. She reckons that Doctor Shang can pick up his ID and household registration booklet and drag her to the Bureau of Civil Affairs right away.

This damn tenderness was making her tear up inside.

After eating, Shang Junzhuo asked Bai Xiyue she was still in pain and whether she wanted to go for a light stroll.

Between the choice of going out or staying inside, she decisively chose the latter.

Who knows who she'll see out there? She has no faith in her luck. If they go out on a walk and meet someone who shouldn't be met, wouldn't she be done for?

Since Bai Xiyue didn't want to go out, Shang Junzhuo didn't go out either. After washing the dishes and chopsticks, he warmed the white fungus soup.

Once she ate enough, Bai Xiyue hugged a pillow and played on her cell phone in the living room.

She looked up questions on how to break up with one's boyfriend.

The first few posts were "What should I do if I broke up with my boyfriend", as well as suggestions that spread out the various root causes and carefully discussed them. They were of no use to Bai Xiyue. She scrolled down and saw one that was similar to her current plight.

The post was by a female office worker. Her boyfriend was abroad somewhere. She wanted to leave him with him but didn't dare go through with it. He said he would go to her workplace to cut her down if they ever broke up. He had a strong desire to control her but was otherwise very good to her. He was unlikely to fall for someone and she was asking for advice on how to break up with him.

Such a heavy love would certainly make people feel suffocated. Too much paranoia is a disaster for ordinary people. Looking at it from that perspective, Bai Xiyue felt that her circumstances weren't as bad. She looked through the post but no one provided an effective solution.

One extreme response even mentioned death.

——Deliberately cross the road and make him die to save you. That way you can get rid of him completely.

Bai Xiyue frowned unconsciously, feeling disgusted by this answer.

Although the poster's depression could be felt, if she really used this method, her conscience would disturb her for the rest of her life. She would be driven further into that nightmare.

What's more, this kind of operation was too risky. What if she doesn't get saved, or what if there isn't enough time to save her? Aren't you telling her to go die?

Bai Xiyue couldn't find an answer but ended up ruining her mood. She cleared her browsing history and contemplated in her heart.

There was a difference between herself and the lady who made the post, and that was the lady was not in the wrong while she was at fault.

If she used such an extreme method in this man-made circumstance, she would not just be scumbag, but the actual dregs of society.

Bai Xiyue couldn't do that.

After coming up with a vague idea, Bai Xiyue put her pillow aside and happily started playing the games.

Anyway, while she's on her period, Doctor Shang can't do anything to her.

Shang Junzhuo was sitting next to her and was looking at an iPad. Bai Xiyue looked over. Once she caught on to the fact that they were academic papers, she stopped paying attention.

After playing a few tower defense games, almost an hour and a half had passed.

"Would you like some white fungus soup?"

"Yeah."Please read this at onemachineshow.blogspot.com

Shang Junzhuo looked at Bai Xiyue busy playing games and went to the kitchen.

Soon, there was the sound of something breaking in the kitchen. Bai Xiyue was startled and asked what happened.

"I just took out something and accidentally broke a ladle."

Shang Jun Zhuo was a bit exasperated. The soup ladle had been made of ceramic. It retained temperature very well, but now it was shattered and he couldn't do anything about it.

"I'll go to the supermarket to buy another one. Wait here and you can the soup after I come back."

"Okay. No rush, I'm still full."

Bai Xiyue was playing games at home with a passion. After playing two of them, thirty minutes flew by but Shang Junzhuo had not yet returned.

It took roughly seven to eight minutes to walk to the supermarket. Half an hour was more than enough time for a round trip. Bai Xiyue was somewhat puzzled, then figured that Shang Junzhuo might be buying other things as well.

She changed games and was about to draw a card when she saw a probability UP event. After thinking about it, she resisted the urge to draw a card and instead stacked her tickets.

There have been games with quiz events these past few days, but all the bests she placed were on the losing side.

After losing 300,000 gold coins, Bai Xiyue felt that must be possessed.

It was such a good lineup, how could it fail like that?

There were a lot of people who bet on the same side as her and the game's world channel ridiculed the ten thousand rooftop event².

Bai Xiyue had sent the message 'let's jump off the rooftop together' when she heard a knock on the door.

Bai Xiyue put her phone down. Thinking that Shang Junzhuo had forgotten to take the key with him, she stepped into her slippers and walked over to open the door.

When she saw who it was, she honestly wanted to jump off a roof.

"Xiyue, how come you're here?"

Chen Qingzhu was a little confused to see his girlfriend here after they had separated on bad terms that afternoon.

"This is my brother's house. Why are you here?"

Bai Xiyue immediately asked.

"My classmate's grandmother lives upstairs. He couldn't come and entrusted me to check on her. On my way out, she asked me to deliver this gift to a Doctor Shang who lives downstairs so..."

Chen Qingzhu swung the bag back and forth as his doubts increased.

Why is Bai Xiyue's brother surnamed Shang?

"What's inside?"

"It seems to be something like a regional specialty product."

Bai Xiyue reached out and took the bag. She was about to say something when she heard Shang Junzhuo's voice.

"Yueyue? Why are you standing at the door?" Shang Junzhuo came up from downstairs carrying a plastic bag to see Chen Qingzhu and Bai Xiyue standing by the door.

"This is?"

"From upstairs. He says the grandmother living there brought you something."

Bai Xiyue pointed to Shang Junzhuo then to the bag she was holding while pretending not to know Chen Qingzhu.

Chen Qingzhu's hand that was suspended in mid-air hung down. Because of Bai Xiyue's words, the gloom in his heart darkened.

It's happening again.

It's happening again!

Whether it was people who knew her or not, couldn't they declare their relationship?

Was it something to be shameful about?

Even though he knew she was doing it for their sake, but still... still...

"Okay, thank you."Please read this at onemachineshow.blogspot.com

Shang Junzhuo thanked Chen Qingzhu and walked inside.

Chen Qingzhu remembered this person. A few days ago, at a western restaurant where he worked part-time, he saw them eating together and had served the table.

He felt a little sad. In the eyes of Bai Xiyue's family, he was like that waiter. Bai Xiyue was the one sitting at the table, then does this mean they weren't a good match?

Bai Xiyue turned sideways and let Shang Junzhuo come in. She then reached out to close the door.

She waved her hand at Chen Qingzhu and motioned him to leave immediately.

Chen Qingzhu grabbed her hand, wanting to say something but was lost for words.

Brother, can you not do that 'lost for words' thing? Someone's gonna die if you keep pulling at me!

Bai Xiyue suddenly pulled her hand back and frowned at him.

"Is there anything else?"

Shang Junzhuo placed the things down and inquired after seeing Chen Qingzhu's expression.

Chen Qingzhu turned to Shang Junzhuo with determined eyes.

"Let me introduce myself. My name is Chen Qingzhu, Xiyue’s boyfriend. I know it may be a bit sudden, and I also know that Xiyue’s parents object to her being with me, but I want to say that Xiyue's happiness should be something she gets to decide. There will inevitably come a day when I'll grow to become a person who can shelter her from the wind and rain."

He was neither humble nor overbearing, and in the end, he expressed his determination and bowed to Shang Junzhuo.

Bai Xiyue knew Chen Qingzhu was going to ruin things the moment she heard his voice.

But there was no fluctuation in her heart. She was even thinking about disco dancing on the rooftop.

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1. T/N'yandere' in Chinese roughly translates to 'sick love'↩︎
2. Ten Thousand Rooftop (万人天台)a lingo that refers to a situation where a guessing game has so many people placing stakes that people jokingly talk about jumping off the roof together after losing↩︎

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lol did Bai Xiyue break down? (pun intended)